Sick

Hello blog.
Really, this blog, its like, depression blog. -__-
Yeah my life suck!!

Look at the subject, "Sick."

Maybe you can guess, I'm not sick.
I just get a heart sick or sick of life.

I just wanna cry.

I mean, this is the worst year I've ever done.

I don't know who else I can trust.

It heard pathetic but it's like I don't have any trustable friends.
I scared, & I know someday they'll stab me in the back.
it's part of humanity, hypocrite & changed.

I can't believe what just happen to me.

People, my friends, they keep a distance with me because my boyfriend..... WTF?
It's hurting me, so badly :'(
Am I so horrible? Or what? Or I being mean to them?
Or what?
Why?
Am I infected with a virus so they don't wanna near me?
Or am I wrong?
They called me childish bcs I don't get it why they wanna keep a distance to me with a reason "they want to respect my boyfriend."

Yes ! I really wanna cry now!!!

I wanna scream right now!!!!

They my friend for almost 3 years, & when I get a boyfriend, their own friend for 3 years, they don't call me their friend anymore!! They see me as "my boyfriend's girlfriend"!!!

Aah... it's like I wanna shut myself down.
Don't have any relationship with anybody anymore.
It's like I've made a mistake for 9 months.

For damn 9 months, I thought they support me. I thought they never change.

Hah, I guess people, humans, never can be trust, can't they?